Monday, June 15, 2015


I have so missed blogging! I am hoping now that we are in our own home and things will hopefully settle down that I will be able to return:) So our big news is that we moved to...Clearfield. Never in a million years would I have thought that I would be living here but the Lord works in mysterious ways as we all know. So far we are loving it and it seems to be just the change that we needed. The kids are having a great time! Everyone has their own room and we have a play room and we aren't on top of each other which has been a nice change. We love our yard and I gotta say not having to share a washer and dryer for the first time in almost 4 years is AMAZING!!! More to come I am so excited.

Monday, January 19, 2015

Going Home

We had a little bit of a rough going home. JD failed his car seat test so Kade had to go get a car bed. I had never heard of one but basically it's so he can lay down in the car and be strapped in. Then they thought I had a blood clot in my leg so I had to go get an ultrasound. After all that we did finally got to go home. The first night was kind of rough but we made it through. Mia and Brooks stayed with grandma that night and then we could focus on just the twins. The next night we were all home and it felt so good to be all together as a family of 6. I was so glad we came home and it was a long weekend and Kade had Labor Day off. We had a lot of help from friends and family we were so lucky. The day Kade went back to work I felt so stressed but it all worked out. 

Wednesday, November 5, 2014

Why is naming babies so hard for us?

 Since we started dating over 12 years ago (wow) we have fought and fought about names. I always had my two names that I wanted like since I was 10 years old and I didn't use one of them haha. I am sure you are curious as to what those are they are Alexis Jayde, call her Lexi or A.J. and Zachary James (after my best friend cousin who has since passed away and my dad.) Kade likes names like KaBella (yes spelled like that) and Ruger (like the gun) I just can't quite get on board. Since we didn't find out what the babies were we would throw out names the whole time I was pregnant and we could never agree shocker! So we had these beautiful boys and for three days tried to figure out names, went through over 100,000 names it was insane. The whole time I was pregnant Kade had wanted Beckerman, I wasn't totally sold on it but it wasn't off my list and I figured if I gave him what he wanted then I could maybe get what I wanted. Well I really wanted Stockton but that was a for sure no go for Kade the other name I wanted was Jeter, that was never going to fly because he hates the Yankees. In the back of my mind for the last six years since the very first time I was pregnant I wanted to name a child Jordan, A- Because Michael Jordan is one of the most amazing athletes and greatest basketball players of all time and B- Because that is where Kade and I met. For a girl or a boy I thought it would be cool but I could never quite get him to agree but he never said he hated it which is amazing for him. Kade also is the one that came up with middle names, he found it very appropriate to suggest the idea of naming them after my twin brothers. However we didn't like that all four names would end in N, so we came up with the idea of their nicknames as the boys middle names. When Kade said JD I was sold, I loved that combination! So we have Jordan Dusty (JD) and Beckerman Ry (Beck). We love them and even though we didn't get the best reaction it doesn't matter because the two of us agree on them and love them. Dusty and Ry I don't think mind though, we were so excited to tell them.
My amazing cooperative divorced parents.
My dad so excited for some more grandkids.
Very excited big sister.
Brooks was excited to jump on dad's "bed"
Our first day as twin parents.
JD's first bath.
Beck was not happy.
Grandma with JD and Beck.
Grandpa with Beck and JD.
Family of 6, we couldn't quite get a good picture.
My beautiful mom.

Thursday, September 25, 2014


I made it to my goal and beyond! 38 weeks 2 days:) we were beyond thrilled other than the fact that I could barely walk. This was Tuesday August 26th. I worked up until Friday and only took Monday off because it was Mia's first day of school. I was blessed so much during my pregnancy with these babies. I also worked really hard to get them here safely. I would basically come home from work everyday and lay down I didn't want them to come early or have problems because of my selfishness. I gained a ton of weight I actually don't even know how much because I wouldn't look when I would go to the doctor but it was all worth it getting these sweet babies here. I went in to see if they would have time to get me in that day, my doctor didn't want me to go farther than than week. We went in they had room and then they started working on getting the babies on their monitors. They got baby A but baby B was hiding under baby A and they worked on it for 3 hours and couldn't get baby B on. They broke my water and just thought we would see how it would go since they couldn't give me pitocin until they could get baby B on a monitor. When I went in I was a 3 and 80% effaced. When I got my epidural I was at a 5. Oh the epidural, for weeks I had been stressed about getting it. I kept telling Kade how I was nervous about it and he told me not to be that I had already done this twice and it was going to be no big deal. Well it took the guy forever and I felt blood dripping down my back and it was sick! I laid down looking for relief and it didn't come. I felt numb on the outside of my left leg but that was it. We had him come back down to fix it and he readjusted it. When he ripped off the tape I cried it hurt so bad, little did I know that would be the least painful thing I would go through the rest of the day. He readjusted it and then said he would come back after the c section he had to go into. Well it still wasn't working, they were trying to get baby B on a monitor still and baby A's heart rate had dropped a little and my doctor said if it dropped anymore they would do a c section. I was fully prepared for that and I was fine with whatever I just wanted to get them here safely. They checked me and I was at a 7 and with the epidural not working I wasn't really enjoying myself. Kade was standing next to my bed and would hold my hand during each contraction and I would breath through it. I was doing really well during all this and I was shocked because I am not one for pain. At about 12 was when I was at a 7 at about 1 I felt tons of pressure and I was ready to push, they checked me and I was. When you are having twins they have you deliver in the OR so they got me ready and wheeled me down. I was really nervous to have to push two babies out and feel the whole thing. I was a little bummed they would only let me have one person in there even though it wasn't a c section so my mom didn't get to come which I was sad about since these are my last babies but I knew it would be okay. They rolled me down and I switched beds and it was cold! I started to push and realized this was going to hurt worse than I could have ever imagined. I was screaming like they do in movies and I wasn't exaggerating at all it was pretty crazy. There were tons of people in there and I felt like I was on display it was exciting, awesome, nerve racking, embarrassing, amazing etc. As I pushed baby A out I quite literally thought I was going to pass out or die I have never felt that much pain in my life. They said its a boy and they showed him to me, he looked like a blonde Brooksie and then whisked him away to the nursery. They had told me that was what they were going to do. We were thrilled a boy, Kade kept saying we have a son! It was good I needed a distraction from the pain. They still didn't have baby B on a monitor and it was making me extremely nervous. They were checking him with a Doppler but it was so stressful. Finally they got a monitor on him and I could hear his heart beat and it made me feel much better. Well as I was trying to push him out they couldn't get him down so the doctor said he was going to put the vacuum on him to get him down well that hurt worse than pushing baby a out and he couldn't never get it to get on. After about a half hour of this I could tell the doctor was ready to pull the plug and do a c section this was the thing I was dreading the most having to deliver both ways so I pushed for all I was worth and more and got out baby B who was also a boy! We were so excited, two boys!!! Baby B was screaming for all he was worth and as soon as they brought him over to me and I said hi sweetheart he stopped crying he knew who I was. Then I got to deliver the rest and their placentas had grown together and I wanted to see it and he showed us it was pretty cool and crazy looking. I couldn't believe I had just delivered twins vaginally with no meds basically and that I had two sons. Baby B looked nothing like baby A he reminded me of Mia. They took him to the nursery and then when they were done sewing me up, only two stitches thank you Heavenly Father! I got to go back to my room. My mom and Annette were there and my poor mom had heard all the screaming and it was very hard on her. They brought me baby A first because his blood sugar was a little low and had me nurse him right away, he did awesome and latched right on. Baby A was born at 1:36pm, 5 lbs 6 oz 17 inches long, he was tiny and perfect. Then they brought in Baby B and he was born at 2:11pm and was 6lbs 1 oz 19 1/2 inches, still tiny and perfect but made Baby A look really small. I couldn't believe how bad I still felt but I was so happy and ecstatic that they were both nursing well already. What a crazy day. I am so glad these beautiful boys are mine and that they got here safely. More to come...

Wednesday, September 24, 2014


 I can't believe we finally got to the day of Mia starting kindergarten. I was so nervous and excited for her. Also I was 38 weeks pregnant with twins that day and found it a miracle that I was going to get to take her. I made her a special strawberry waffle breakfast and then we got ready for the day. She wanted french braids for her hair. After we took Mia and I didn't cry yay! Brooks and I went home and hung out for the last day before the twins joined us the next day. It was a really fun day.
 Brooks was really excited for her as well.
 She picked out a Sofia backpack.
 Waiting for school to start.
 Hanging out with Millie.
 Mia and Mrs. Smith.
 Mia, Millie, Sadie, and Leah.
 Kahlen and Mia.
 The red carpet walk.
 Mia's spot.
 Listening to Mrs. Smith.
 After school, she loved every minute. Her favorite part was lunch and recess:)


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Kade and I met in high school. We have been married 6 years and we have a beautiful daughter Mia and son Brooks.